secretly crying without anyone noticing has been quite common lately.. not sure why though.. simple stuff just make me sad. im confused. why do i really want from my life? what happened to the cheerful me? i know i didnt want it.. but why do i have this sense that i want it so damn badly? why arent i working hard enough? why is it that everyone hates me? am i not good enough? whats bad about me? cant someone just go up to me and tell me straight in the face what i am like? i would like friends.. whom i can trust.. whom i can talk to and share my feelings with.. why is my world so dark now? afraid, terrified of the loneliness.. i really am.
